Stuff like this is why we’re convinced we have the best fans out there. Thanks Evan, for capturing and compiling the (incredibly beautiful) simple moments from your life on film and making this wonderful video to “Waking Season”. Well done sir!
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me… You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not tae pleasure in burnt offerings. My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.
Honestly, it kills me every time I hear one thing and see another.
Maybe it’s different for me because I like to give people benefit of the doubt. If we call each other friends, I am going to trust what you say. If you tell me one thing and everyone else tells me another, I am going to trust what you say. Maybe that’s stupid of me but then again I believe in true, trustworthy friendships.
I’ve learned that people are way too selfish to tell it how it is. You think you’re doing someone a favor by covering up the truth so it won’t hurt them, when in all reality, all you’re doing is building a relationship on lies. So when something else comes up with this person, you have to tell more lies, and more lies, and more lies.
You can tell all the lies you want. You can want to “not hurt their feelings” all you want. But when it comes down to it, one little action can make all the curtains fall. And when that happens, the damage done is immensely worse than it would’ve been before.
Do yourself a favor. Be Honest. Do everyone else a favor. Be Honest.
Let me say this again..
BE HONEST. WITH EVERYTHING.
If you call someone you’re friend, you’d tell them the truth because that’s what friends do. THE WHOLE TRUTH. Beating around the bush is just as bad.
25 My soul cleaves to the dust; Revive me according to Your word. 26 I have told of my ways, and You have answered me; Teach me Your statutes. 27 Make me understand the way of Your precepts, So I will meditate on Your wonders. 28 My soul weeps because of grief; Strengthen me according to Your word. 29 Remove the false way from me, And graciously grant me Your law. 30 I have chosen the faithful way; I have placed Your ordinances before me. 31 I cling to Your testimonies; O LORD, do not put me to shame! 32 I shall run the way of Your commandments, For You will enlarge my heart.
I’m leaving in about 12 hours to be a counselor at Camp Ozark for the entire summer. I’m so incredibly excited to have this opportunity to be a part of and lead an unforgettable week for different groups of kids throughout the summer.
As well as being a counselor of a cabin, I will be in charge of the shooting sports at the camp(skeet shooting, rifle and archery range). The thought of helping a kid shoot their first gun and teach them how to hit a target gets me so stoked!
I can’t wait to see what God will reveal and do inside of me as well as others. I think it will be extremely stressful at points but so incredibly rewarding.
I will leave my address here for anyone who wants to send a letter. I will make it a priority to write back!
Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers. Have an awesome summer!
155 Camp Ozark Dr
Mt. Ida, AR 71957
So today marks my last day of Freshman year at UTK.. In all honesty, I really couldn’t wait for this semester to be over but I didn’t think it would be done so soon.
My day today consisted of breakfast with a good friend, failing my Chemistry final, and packing up what was my life for the past year into a my Jetta(There is a surprising amount of space in it too). I ended up driving home alone today, which I wasn’t too pumped about at first, but that quickly changed when I realized I had three hours of quiet time.
Aside from burning my tongue with scalding hot coffee, I found myself mostly reminiscing about this past year’s events; where I had been, and where I am now. Being an overall pretty crappy semester, I couldn’t help but be joyous in the fact that this last month has literally been the most important and meaningful to me. Every single week would just one-up the prior; leading to this last week being the best week of my college career.
I’m still in awe of God’s power of answering prayers. Even ones made five months ago. I feel like this week was one enormous Piñata because every time I swung at something, all sort’s of goodies and confetti would fly everywhere! No joke! And if this pattern continues, I’m seriously going to have the most amazing next few months(In five days, I am leaving to be a counselor at Camp Ozark for the entire summer).
God has been extremely good to me this entire semester whether I realized it or not. I guess just never recognized His complete goodness until recently. And man, is He good!
It’s just crazy to me that all of this is happening so fast. I mean, it is good and everything but I wouldn’t be complaining if life decided to slow down a tad and let me enjoy more of it’s sweet nectar.
I’m loving this life thing. And you. You are special.
Thank You so much for everything. Thank You for being faithful. Thank You for the relationships you have given to me. Thank You for Your nonstop love and compassion. You are pretty spectacular. I like You.